The September

Hmm..quite emo nowadays..feeling so moody..don't know why..hahaha.. yesterday saw something unexpected..I mad about actually you really did that..I really care it....你不知道的事 I don't know I can get myself so upset and angry *stupid stupid* >.< I'm just angry for nothing..it's non of my business..does I get myself in trouble again?? argh..hope you get out off my sight..what a boring week but next week could be busy..haha..time pass so fast until i can't imagine is going to be Mid-September already. Mooncake festival is on next week Wednesday..bro is going to outstation..less 1 family member..hmm..this year September is so different..shoud i be more happy?=.= I just can feel everything is changed..changed changed changed...always feel it..cause the surrounding of us would always keep changing..it should but some things I really don't wish to change..

11 September 2010

I like this picture!! isn't is nice?hahaha

 Sigh~ my fringe isn't short also =.=

Hmm..not romantic er..sorry to say that..hehe..anyway,wish u both happily ever after ^^

 So full..

Me,Jesslyn and Ella ^^

                                                                       My Heart shape flower o..hahax

Hmm..less Jesslyn join us to take picture today..just for movie =.= nothing much to take..take dou sien already..Resident Evil: Afterlife not bad la..just some part abit bored..haha..anyway, today such a busy day?? aunty and uncle back to our house from s'pore and JB oo..pack with relatives..so sien =.= aiks..hungry now tim..want eat or not le? >.< tummy getting bigger jor..sob..

我想 我会学着不去在乎

我知道有些事情并不容易但我会继续努力，

在乎一个人的感觉的确很甜蜜却也很痛苦，
如果我还能找到一个令我在乎你而不痛苦的方法，
或许我就不会做出了这么样的一个选择...


我会学着不去在乎你的短信，
不会每天等你的短息等到不会睡觉，
不会每天发一些你不会回复我的短信，
也不会再为了你不回复我和你争吵了...

我会学着不去在乎你记不记得了，
不记得我几时生日也没关系，
不记得我的电话号码也没关系，
不记得什么时候该找我也没关系...

我会学着不去在乎你身边有着谁，
和异性一起出门也没关系，
和异性聊电到半夜也没关系,
和异性搞搞暧昧也没关系...

学着不去在乎你手机里的人是谁，
学着不去在乎你和谁一起聊电话，
学着不去在乎有关你的一切事与物，
或许这样的不在乎才能让自己好过，
或许这样的不在乎已经不再是爱了，
不是就不是吧，因为你也不在乎我是否在乎...

如果你也在乎我的感受，
就不会让我有那么多的在乎了,
我吃醋因为我在乎，
我生气因为我在乎，
我在乎因为我爱你...

如果有一天你察觉到我对你的不在乎，
你不要慌也不要忙，
因为我不在乎不表示我已经不再爱你了，
只是你对我的不在乎,
已经让我学会如何更爱我自己了...

我想我会学着不去在乎，
不是因为不再爱你，
而是先学会如何爱护我自己...

I will not care anymore..

Letters to Juliet

Letters to Juliet is a very romantic and nice movie..I Loves this kind of movie actually ^.^

"You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like, a love leave the loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for, but I'd like to believe, if I ever were to feel it, that I'd have the courage to seize it."

50 years later back to the old true loves..anything can be possible just for the true loves and I believe it..

Posing

Haha..see this picture..both also having the same style..so like to pose huh?XD depressed or got things to see downstairs?leng lui??kekeke..

30th & 31st Aug 2010

                                   

                               

                               

                                        
                                          
Fantastic 4 Night again..hahax..this time we went to The Curve. So many malay people play illegal fire thingy =.= then we watch Step Up 3D with Chibi Bf along which he join us later..haha..that movie is just awesome as Step Up-The Streets. Anyway I prefer Step Up- The Streets..lol..after that went back home lo..already 3am++ so tired..

Holiday 17 Aug 2010

Finally i'm done with my studies..i'm nt missing my book,notes and assignments..today is my first day holiday oo..happy happy~ so relaxing until i'm so bored..can't go trip right now because passport haven renew and my family said wait for Matta Fair to go check out the packages for travel. That is because we have called the Star Cruise but must wait until Novemeber only got that packages..so long?so we just wait for Matta Fair around 2 weeks more,check for Phuket or Bali Island..ngek ngek..i hope u guys promise go this places then this places le coz both my Dad and Mum always break promise..ish ish =.= i think i won't find freelances to work already since only 1 month for resting then only find the full time job to work.
However,right now i'm so bored and lonely..most of my close friend is working oo..hard to find them out..must wait until Saturday. Money also not enough for me..lol..yesterday after watch movie go shopping..finally get to buy a bag..search for so long also not nice XD Just now cleaning up my messy rom =.= table full of notes and books..haha..hardworking?no lo..just simply put everywhere..wait for tomorrow again..dinner with my friends..hohoho

A day which I never forget

I get the answer already..since he act like that, why i still so stupid and do stupid?hmm..i really helpless. But since yesterday night u have gave me an answer. i just need to tell myself million of times that is not worth and no use to wait. Anyway, u do have a fun times with your friend until forgot to reply me..happy for you too even i sad about u forgot to reply me. i just still care about you but now the answer totally write out infront of me already. From that time onwards, heart is abit broken yet also let me die heart..yesterday night my tears falling once again~ inside my heart kept on telling myself must wake up, don't silly anymore and it is already over. i hate myself very much cause i know how to said and feel but don't know how to do it >.< sigh~ today go shopping buy his present even i'm having my final year exam next week but still go buy it, again care his things during exam time, promise myself this is my last. Add more, still care whether he like or not..so how?syok sendiri only..i also not sure want to give it or not at this time..feeling my heart totally no mood and emo. I bought the present for him mainly because is his 21st b'day..maybe this present not expensive as his other friends gave him but it's a gift from me which selected meticulously.

Don't Dream 5 Aug 2010

Today is 4th August 2010, after todays is the datelines (5 Aug) that i have told myself earlier to forget him. The time has past so fast where is already half year now. This few days i ask myself did i forget him already?clearly forget?answer is No. His birthday arrives soon, well~ this year I'm not by his side and no need to think any surprises for him. I'm sure his friend will and i had seen they are planning to go some places to celebrate. Since I know him, i got give him present or card but this year totally different status. Even he had ask me to pay him RM 100k for his birthday jokingly but he didn't ask me to celebrate with him. So i also don't know whether to buy present for him or not, if bought how to give him?he don't willing to see me too. As i said before "Don't Dream". If i really bought the present for him,how?ask someone to pass to him?if like that i really don't know what meaning is that...yes~ i try put you away from me but my heart didn't..maybe you know my heart still contains you or maybe not but..........

我承认我真的已经爱上你了，

我就是单纯地爱上你了，

看见你开心，我会和你一起笑，

看到你伤心，我会和你一起哭，

你得意的时候，我比你还开心，

你失落的时候，我比你还伤心

或许你最爱的那一个人不是我，

但我肯定最爱你的那个人是我，

你可以不接受我对你的爱，

却不能阻止我继续爱着你，

因为爱你是我的责任，与你无关...

I can't cheat myself..my feelings..but i hope you have a great birthday this year as i'm a bad gal that make your last year birthday unhappy..i did try my best..after what had happned before which cames to half year already, i know i have grown up a lot..

Pictures of Disabled Child Home Care

 This kids is trying to attack me by pushing against me (uncountable times)~ O.m.g..he keep on attack and told me "He took my PSP~ "

 Sponsor by Inti College

Sponsor by Rachel~ a bag of toys..hahaha

Kena tangkap by Stephen..lolx..that gal don't want to hold the drinks by herself..

A very great experience that i have gain in this last sem~ enjoy with Inti-ans. Previously had post about this trip so here it is the pictures from my friend..haha..