Holiday 17 Aug 2010

Finally i'm done with my studies..i'm nt missing my book,notes and assignments..today is my first day holiday oo..happy happy~ so relaxing until i'm so bored..can't go trip right now because passport haven renew and my family said wait for Matta Fair to go check out the packages for travel. That is because we have called the Star Cruise but must wait until Novemeber only got that packages..so long?so we just wait for Matta Fair around 2 weeks more,check for Phuket or Bali Island..ngek ngek..i hope u guys promise go this places then this places le coz both my Dad and Mum always break promise..ish ish =.= i think i won't find freelances to work already since only 1 month for resting then only find the full time job to work.
However,right now i'm so bored and lonely..most of my close friend is working oo..hard to find them out..must wait until Saturday. Money also not enough for me..lol..yesterday after watch movie go shopping..finally get to buy a bag..search for so long also not nice XD Just now cleaning up my messy rom =.= table full of notes and books..haha..hardworking?no lo..just simply put everywhere..wait for tomorrow again..dinner with my friends..hohoho

A day which I never forget

I get the answer already..since he act like that, why i still so stupid and do stupid?hmm..i really helpless. But since yesterday night u have gave me an answer. i just need to tell myself million of times that is not worth and no use to wait. Anyway, u do have a fun times with your friend until forgot to reply me..happy for you too even i sad about u forgot to reply me. i just still care about you but now the answer totally write out infront of me already. From that time onwards, heart is abit broken yet also let me die heart..yesterday night my tears falling once again~ inside my heart kept on telling myself must wake up, don't silly anymore and it is already over. i hate myself very much cause i know how to said and feel but don't know how to do it >.< sigh~ today go shopping buy his present even i'm having my final year exam next week but still go buy it, again care his things during exam time, promise myself this is my last. Add more, still care whether he like or not..so how?syok sendiri only..i also not sure want to give it or not at this time..feeling my heart totally no mood and emo. I bought the present for him mainly because is his 21st b'day..maybe this present not expensive as his other friends gave him but it's a gift from me which selected meticulously.

Don't Dream 5 Aug 2010

Today is 4th August 2010, after todays is the datelines (5 Aug) that i have told myself earlier to forget him. The time has past so fast where is already half year now. This few days i ask myself did i forget him already?clearly forget?answer is No. His birthday arrives soon, well~ this year I'm not by his side and no need to think any surprises for him. I'm sure his friend will and i had seen they are planning to go some places to celebrate. Since I know him, i got give him present or card but this year totally different status. Even he had ask me to pay him RM 100k for his birthday jokingly but he didn't ask me to celebrate with him. So i also don't know whether to buy present for him or not, if bought how to give him?he don't willing to see me too. As i said before "Don't Dream". If i really bought the present for him,how?ask someone to pass to him?if like that i really don't know what meaning is that...yes~ i try put you away from me but my heart didn't..maybe you know my heart still contains you or maybe not but..........

我承认我真的已经爱上你了，

我就是单纯地爱上你了，

看见你开心，我会和你一起笑，

看到你伤心，我会和你一起哭，

你得意的时候，我比你还开心，

你失落的时候，我比你还伤心

或许你最爱的那一个人不是我，

但我肯定最爱你的那个人是我，

你可以不接受我对你的爱，

却不能阻止我继续爱着你，

因为爱你是我的责任，与你无关...

I can't cheat myself..my feelings..but i hope you have a great birthday this year as i'm a bad gal that make your last year birthday unhappy..i did try my best..after what had happned before which cames to half year already, i know i have grown up a lot..

Pictures of Disabled Child Home Care

 This kids is trying to attack me by pushing against me (uncountable times)~ O.m.g..he keep on attack and told me "He took my PSP~ "

 Sponsor by Inti College

Sponsor by Rachel~ a bag of toys..hahaha

Kena tangkap by Stephen..lolx..that gal don't want to hold the drinks by herself..

A very great experience that i have gain in this last sem~ enjoy with Inti-ans. Previously had post about this trip so here it is the pictures from my friend..haha..