放下你 ，我还记得你

当我不再轻易想起你的时候，

我已经渐渐地将你放下了，
原以为不听，不闻，不说也不问，
就可以这样无声无息地将你放下，
后来才知道我错了，错的很彻底，
那并不叫做放下，而是一种逃避，
以为自己装作什么都不知道，
就能轻易地把你给放下了….


后来才知道，原来曾经深爱过的人，
并不可能从自己的记忆里消失不见，
越是告诉着自己不能那么没用，
不能一直这样不停地思念着你，
心中对你的思念却是越来越浓，
才知道，原来自己努力地告诉自己不去想你，
原来是一种提醒，
提醒着自己要去想你…


算了吧，不能忘记便不能忘记吧，
反正我的心中其实也并不舍得把你忘了，
只是思念着一个不爱自己的人有些痛苦，
既然要痛苦，那就痛得干脆与彻底些吧，
让自己不再压抑着那股不去想你的心情，
找个没人看得见的角落，好好思念着你，
思念着你对我的好，也思念着你对我的坏，
然后把心中的那些悲伤统统给哭出来…


哭过了，梦醒了，生活还是要继续，
不必为自己找一个让你忘了他的理由，
而是需要找一个能让自己开心的理由，
让自己过得开心，让自己过得潇洒，
然后等待一个可以给得起自己幸福的人…


当自己不再轻易想起他的时候，
才发现自己并不是把他给放下了，
而是把他抱得更紧，
因为他的残影总是提醒着你，
一定要过得比他好，一定要比他幸福，
一定不能让他太得意，
一定要让全世界人知道，不要你是他的损失…


有时候，忘记并不是把他放下，只是把他埋在心底，
那不如好好记得他吧，记得他对你的好与坏，
记得他对你说着我们不适合，
先是伤痛，然后明白，最后才领悟，
相通了，他不过是一个不爱你的人…
他值得你的眼泪，值得你为他的付出，
因为你曾经深深地爱过他，
但他不值得你为他付出下半辈子的幸福，
因为他选择了放弃…

My 1st present ^o^

Today after I woke up, we went to malls and check out for the camera and my mum bags. Hahaha..I never thought my dad really bought the camera for me..if really buy I think he will buy the cheaper for me..lolz but ends up he ask me is it I want that?? and of cause I say Yes la but just depends on him want to buy or not only..kekeke :P then he say OK la..I was so happy lo..hahaha..he said that camera is my birthday present so I got my first birthday present liao..hehehe..but too bad no Silver colours so pick baby blue oo..my baby boy born out this morning!! XD must name it!! let me think first..hohoho..then my mum get to buy her bag after she so yim cim choose this and that @.@ me and my mum get our things already ^.^ prepare to go~~~ woo hoo~ but in my heart still worrying somethings..sigh...

21 September 2010-> Pre-Mooncake festival

 My Love ♥ ~ haha..actually doesn't look like a love =.=

Our tang lung a.k.a Lantern~ hohoho..

 See this dude..so guai lighting up the tang lung..haha..

 Wow~ sooo dark oo..cause she stand the darkest place while I candid =.=

Hmm..this year play Lantern twice time..soooo happy ^.^ even though i quite miss the old times but I'm glad i still have my family and cousins..they are the best..hehe..my bro outstation yesterday so we do pre-mooncake festival lo..haha..after dinner, is playing time!! Lantern~~ hehe..

Today is Mooncake Festival..so wish everyone have their happy time and enjoy it~

Aunty open house->Play Sky Lantern

 Here it is Kong Ming Lantern (Sky Lantern)!! haha..various of colours ^.^

 Let it become fatty..haha

 Let it blew up..yah..haha

 Nottie cousin helps too..lol

  Woot~ Uncle & Aunty enjoying their beer while watching us play..my beer finish liao lu~ :P

 Yeah~ success~ awww~ so cute

Sky Lantern lantern~ my dreams come true ya..

Yesterday night was my Auntie new house open house..after ate dinner..we all went to playground and play Lantern and Sky Lantern too ^o^ so happy..haha..we were so excited to play it..this is my first time play sky lantern oo..the first one not successful but the second is successful!! gosh~ so happy~ nice to play but it's prohibited to play in Malaysia already..zzzz...that's my day..full stomach back home..hohoho..happy weekend with my relatives and cousins..muacks..

I don't want October arrives

I fear..I really really fear..fear of October..no jokes..why?why?why?because once October arrives..I gotta find work..gotta face stress again..and worst is the actually date suppose to be a happy day but now it's a memorable day for me..quite sad to see that day arrive T_T

Btw, result is release already but just can know whether pass or fail..scare again..next week gonna check it out..aww~ =(

I hate my Dad so much! break promise again..wth~ he always like that..no change huh?stingy..arghhh...hate u hate u....blerk...

The September

Hmm..quite emo nowadays..feeling so moody..don't know why..hahaha.. yesterday saw something unexpected..I mad about actually you really did that..I really care it....你不知道的事 I don't know I can get myself so upset and angry *stupid stupid* >.< I'm just angry for nothing..it's non of my business..does I get myself in trouble again?? argh..hope you get out off my sight..what a boring week but next week could be busy..haha..time pass so fast until i can't imagine is going to be Mid-September already. Mooncake festival is on next week Wednesday..bro is going to outstation..less 1 family member..hmm..this year September is so different..shoud i be more happy?=.= I just can feel everything is changed..changed changed changed...always feel it..cause the surrounding of us would always keep changing..it should but some things I really don't wish to change..

11 September 2010

I like this picture!! isn't is nice?hahaha

 Sigh~ my fringe isn't short also =.=

Hmm..not romantic er..sorry to say that..hehe..anyway,wish u both happily ever after ^^

 So full..

Me,Jesslyn and Ella ^^

                                                                       My Heart shape flower o..hahax

Hmm..less Jesslyn join us to take picture today..just for movie =.= nothing much to take..take dou sien already..Resident Evil: Afterlife not bad la..just some part abit bored..haha..anyway, today such a busy day?? aunty and uncle back to our house from s'pore and JB oo..pack with relatives..so sien =.= aiks..hungry now tim..want eat or not le? >.< tummy getting bigger jor..sob..

我想 我会学着不去在乎

我知道有些事情并不容易但我会继续努力，

在乎一个人的感觉的确很甜蜜却也很痛苦，
如果我还能找到一个令我在乎你而不痛苦的方法，
或许我就不会做出了这么样的一个选择...


我会学着不去在乎你的短信，
不会每天等你的短息等到不会睡觉，
不会每天发一些你不会回复我的短信，
也不会再为了你不回复我和你争吵了...

我会学着不去在乎你记不记得了，
不记得我几时生日也没关系，
不记得我的电话号码也没关系，
不记得什么时候该找我也没关系...

我会学着不去在乎你身边有着谁，
和异性一起出门也没关系，
和异性聊电到半夜也没关系,
和异性搞搞暧昧也没关系...

学着不去在乎你手机里的人是谁，
学着不去在乎你和谁一起聊电话，
学着不去在乎有关你的一切事与物，
或许这样的不在乎才能让自己好过，
或许这样的不在乎已经不再是爱了，
不是就不是吧，因为你也不在乎我是否在乎...

如果你也在乎我的感受，
就不会让我有那么多的在乎了,
我吃醋因为我在乎，
我生气因为我在乎，
我在乎因为我爱你...

如果有一天你察觉到我对你的不在乎，
你不要慌也不要忙，
因为我不在乎不表示我已经不再爱你了，
只是你对我的不在乎,
已经让我学会如何更爱我自己了...

我想我会学着不去在乎，
不是因为不再爱你，
而是先学会如何爱护我自己...

I will not care anymore..

Letters to Juliet

Letters to Juliet is a very romantic and nice movie..I Loves this kind of movie actually ^.^

"You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like, a love leave the loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for, but I'd like to believe, if I ever were to feel it, that I'd have the courage to seize it."

50 years later back to the old true loves..anything can be possible just for the true loves and I believe it..

Posing

Haha..see this picture..both also having the same style..so like to pose huh?XD depressed or got things to see downstairs?leng lui??kekeke..