A day which I never forget

I get the answer already..since he act like that, why i still so stupid and do stupid?hmm..i really helpless. But since yesterday night u have gave me an answer. i just need to tell myself million of times that is not worth and no use to wait. Anyway, u do have a fun times with your friend until forgot to reply me..happy for you too even i sad about u forgot to reply me. i just still care about you but now the answer totally write out infront of me already. From that time onwards, heart is abit broken yet also let me die heart..yesterday night my tears falling once again~ inside my heart kept on telling myself must wake up, don't silly anymore and it is already over. i hate myself very much cause i know how to said and feel but don't know how to do it >.< sigh~ today go shopping buy his present even i'm having my final year exam next week but still go buy it, again care his things during exam time, promise myself this is my last. Add more, still care whether he like or not..so how?syok sendiri only..i also not sure want to give it or not at this time..feeling my heart totally no mood and emo. I bought the present for him mainly because is his 21st b'day..maybe this present not expensive as his other friends gave him but it's a gift from me which selected meticulously.

Don't Dream 5 Aug 2010

Today is 4th August 2010, after todays is the datelines (5 Aug) that i have told myself earlier to forget him. The time has past so fast where is already half year now. This few days i ask myself did i forget him already?clearly forget?answer is No. His birthday arrives soon, well~ this year I'm not by his side and no need to think any surprises for him. I'm sure his friend will and i had seen they are planning to go some places to celebrate. Since I know him, i got give him present or card but this year totally different status. Even he had ask me to pay him RM 100k for his birthday jokingly but he didn't ask me to celebrate with him. So i also don't know whether to buy present for him or not, if bought how to give him?he don't willing to see me too. As i said before "Don't Dream". If i really bought the present for him,how?ask someone to pass to him?if like that i really don't know what meaning is that...yes~ i try put you away from me but my heart didn't..maybe you know my heart still contains you or maybe not but..........

我承认我真的已经爱上你了，

我就是单纯地爱上你了，

看见你开心，我会和你一起笑，

看到你伤心，我会和你一起哭，

你得意的时候，我比你还开心，

你失落的时候，我比你还伤心

或许你最爱的那一个人不是我，

但我肯定最爱你的那个人是我，

你可以不接受我对你的爱，

却不能阻止我继续爱着你，

因为爱你是我的责任，与你无关...

I can't cheat myself..my feelings..but i hope you have a great birthday this year as i'm a bad gal that make your last year birthday unhappy..i did try my best..after what had happned before which cames to half year already, i know i have grown up a lot..

Pictures of Disabled Child Home Care

 This kids is trying to attack me by pushing against me (uncountable times)~ O.m.g..he keep on attack and told me "He took my PSP~ "

 Sponsor by Inti College

Sponsor by Rachel~ a bag of toys..hahaha

Kena tangkap by Stephen..lolx..that gal don't want to hold the drinks by herself..

A very great experience that i have gain in this last sem~ enjoy with Inti-ans. Previously had post about this trip so here it is the pictures from my friend..haha..

Public Presentation 30 July 2010

 Our public presentation title

 So many people >.<

Cameraman..video-ing us..that guy quite handsome XD

What can i say?nevous nervous only..sigh~ 4 years study in college but never try before public presentation..scare like hell but i know this is a very good opportunity for me to gain experience. After this presentation, feels i have more confident already..most weird is i heard my voice through the mike..omg..whole theather also my voice >.< yiii...horrible..other than students, there is Padini representatives, Mydin, Carefour, JobStreet and our lecturers..LOL~~ they gave so many and harsh comment to earlier groups..luckily when our turn don't have these judges around..there is business admin, marketing, accounting and finance courses in this public presentation. Every group limited to 10 minutes only, almost every group failed to do in this limited time.

Disabled Child Home Care

My toys~ aww~

On 28 July 2010, me and my friends went to visit Disabled Child Home Care..my friends ask me to prepare somethings like clothes or toys for them if i have. So then i ask my mum got any toys?my mum say my childhood toys lo..sob..sob..i so sayang them de lo..still nice looking..hahaha..anyway, after this visit i learn how is their life in there and there is abandoned child as well..hate those people left their child..haha..honestly,the kids are too friendly actually..they tend to touch u without worries >.<

Happy Birthday to Grandma

 Happy Birthday to Grandma~ wish u stay healthy always ^^

Yesterday night my uncle back from Singapore to KL..then we go China Court Restaurant have our dinner there..the environment inside the restaurant was so nice even though that shopping mall have nothing..haha..my dad and uncle has book a VIP room there..my first impression for the room is..OMG~ so nice~~~ ^^ because the toom was so big and inside got personal washroom, decoration also nice-really got Hong Kong style, got sing k, got big sofa, got TV and last but not least is nice dishes..kakaka..there also got special storeroom for waiter and waitress bring food or manage plates inside there..wow..so yeng lo..we sat there for almost 5 hours..didn't know time past so fast..haha..enjoy-ing wine while watcing TV and abit dizzy tim..overall price is very NICE too :P last night was a happy night for our family..really glad..

Time past very fast..everything change unexpectedly..last two years until now..got so many big changes on me and my family as well..i just hope my whole family and grandma stay healthy always ^.^

Speechless

What what what?since when i ask to drop ads in my chat box and visit my blog?>.< sweat~ grrr...hatred..

Haiz..better don't care about that first..still left 1 more week is my death week..next week i'm so gonna cry and scream out @.@ public presentation ah..i don't want~~ sob..sob..anyone can help me?gosh..normal presentation already make me nervous yet this public presentation is make me feel even worst..sigh~~~

Besides that, mum ask me don't eat so much rice wor..is it i'm getting fat already?lol..happy?unhappy? :P
Haiz..scare to talk to u..scare to see u..scare to go out with u..what is my problem?i just can avoid because i got no mood for it anymore?

Stressing

Yummy~ this jelly beans so nice to eat..is Japanese sweets ^^ my accompanies while i doing assignments..kakaka

Wooh~ today i have dress up myself very smart looking..kakaka..few friends said i look so smart today..hohoho..of coz lo,normally lazy to dress up nicer but today have to well dress up because need to achieve my leader mission..lolx >.< but YES!!! we really achieve it..i never gain so high marks before in any group..so happy ^.^ stress~ tomorrow still have another presentation..aiks..today leader will become tomorrow audience..fainted..next week presentation is WORST than this all presentation..ahhhh..i hate..i don't want Padini to be my interviewer although i like their brand..sob..sob..
Wa..wa..wa..1 more weeks left only..what am i suppose to feel le?ng seh dak leave college life also got..nervous because of final also got..worry about working life also got..haiz..

Bon Odori 17 July 2010

 Preparing go Bon Odori 2010 ^.^

 Camwhoring 1st..kakaka..

 Iris + Chelz at Bon Odori

 Chelz + Iris at Heaven restaurant

Steven N Chelz

 1st time went to Bon Odori..hmm..1 word..HOT..hahaha..quite nice to see the environment there but pack of people..i saw his picture..he right behind us only but we didn't get to see each other..haha...after that, we head to Look Out Point yum cha..sui Steven go find me at Bon Odori..we also ciao edi lo..haha..but he join us at Heaven yum cha..1st time yum cha with him and chat with him nicely..kakaka..

Emo

Today felt so emo since morning..back home doing nothing but online awhile sleep awhile..too tired to start my assignment..maybe my friend complain about her love thing make me emo >.< until i back home think about it..suddenly want cry T.T maybe i really can't cheat myself..really can't..no choice for me...still care for it..hate myself...guess we got no fate or?ming ming just a short distance but can't get to see each other..hahaha..haiz..anything la..

Tomorrow presentation..wedenesday also..sob :( very stress..assignment also haven't finish..enough time for me to study for final exam ma?worry~ so need support from u..but u will never know my situation now cause u will never care about me already..good luck to myself then..sob..sob..gambateh!! hehe